I have been drawing a lot lately, so much so I usually manage to get 6 hours of semi-decent sleep. Then it's off to my regular job which I am at for roughly 10 hours a day working on a video game.

I love my job a lot but being a game tester kind of sucks at times. But the up side is, I get to work closely with developers everyday and are often part of the meetings and side tasks.

So I know how lucky I am at the moment but I still can't help but feel a little empty :/

I guess I feel bad for not having some sort of art career yet and everyday it eats at me. I spend all my free time drawing as much as I can and I am to the point where I feel like I am going in a circle. I even updated my resume yesterday and within a year and a half I have done more than anyone in my entire family could have dreamed of.

I think the worst part is... I looked all over online at possible job opportunities and there wasn't really anything out there for artists. Well, most everything was for an Art Director, which would be awesome to be but requires tons of skill. I think I am still at "Padawan" level.

Is that enough? I need more. :/ I need more work and more projects. I feel alive when I get art jobs on the side. But lately things have been slow. So what do I do now? Go back to school? *sigh*

All I know is that I need to keep drawing and learning and studying... one day, something amazing will happen. I just don't know when.